On this day in 2013 I arrived in Berlin not knowing what I was getting myself into. I was nervous, but at the same time I had high expectations. ”If I can make it here, I can make it anywhere”, I thought. The butterflies in my stomach were dancing wildly – but here I was.…
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Today I took care of me. I was recently reminded of the relationship I have with Berlin, with the city itself. Like a dear friend it always cheers me up when I’m down. Walking around, watching people, taking in the sights, the views, the noise, the smells. Berlin never lets me down. It always delivers.…
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It is very popular right now to see social media and digital communication as something altogether bad. Almost as if they were the tools of Satan. Well, that might be slightly exaggerated – or maybe not?! There is definitely a fight going on between good and evil, but why let the evil side win? Besides,…
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Time flies, and even more so when you are having fun. I actually got to celebrate my 49th birthday in Berlin. Usually this time of the year I’m in Sweden with my family, and it was a bit emotional to not be spending the day with them. On the other hand my friends here made…
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I am writing. Since my last post I can’t help but writing, but I have stuffed my face with sweets all weekend. Why? To keep the anxiety levels down, because it’s so scary! I can’t explain it. I have no idea why I’m afraid, but I’m mildly excited too. Please let nothing come in my…
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It has occurred to me that my writing difficulties are connected to other issues in my life, such as work and money. Because I had to deal with work-related problems, like applying for jobs I didn’t want, I gave up my dream of writing. And ever since, I have been absolutely miserable – but then…
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Discover You Creative Archetype, was the message that caught my eye. I find most Facebook tests silly, but something about this one made me curious. Archetype? This was different, and I was of course eager to find out – am I really an artist? Many people find social media and particularly Facebook bad, bad, bad.…
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Movement is supposed to be good, compared to being stuck. In an article today I read how looking for your purpose can make you feel stuck. Well that, and not being in control of your life. Since I handed in my control to the Jobcenter it’s like being back on that stormy sea again. I have…
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Right now I’m struggling with money. It’s difficult finding work and creating stability in my life. I had to contact German authorities and ask for help, which of course doesn’t happen over night. My whole existence feels shaky, and it doesn’t bring out the best in me. On the contrary. Desperation is ugly. Then I…
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A friend sent me a tip via email. It was a book by Barbara Sher. When I looked her up on the internet I found a TEDx Talk she did a few years ago. As I started to watch it what she said wowed me: ”Isolation is the dream-killer, not your attitude.” According to Barbara…
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I often feel like an alien these days. Maybe not like I’m from another planet, but at least from another dimension. I don’t know, but I seem to think and worry about things that not many others find worth brooding over. Is there something wrong with me? As a child I can’t say I felt…
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For a few days I’ve been walking around in a dark cloud of depression. Feelings of failure and meaninglessness added extra weight to my body, both figuratively and literally. I have a lot to do right now, which is good, but I haven’t had the time to write. Oh, but that’s it! Thursday it was…
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So why do I still doubt it? Because it’s quite subtle. I hear whispering in my head. Is it real or wishful thinking? Does it matter what it is? When I am grounded and fully myself it feels just right, but when I’m down then I’m not so sure anymore. I’ve finished Lilous book, and…
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We all know the importance of positive thinking and an optimistic mindset. But I’m sure most of us have a problem with that once and again. When you feel stuck and ”nothing” positive seems to happen in your life, it’s easy to start doubting. Am I a failure, or on the right track? About 7…
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The last 4 or 5 years I have noticed a change in me. One of many, I might add. Like everybody else I have to earn a living, but I can no longer take or apply for a job if it ”feels wrong”. This is difficult to explain, because it usually sounds like an excuse.…
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For some time now I have been thinking about coaching others. Would I be able to do that? I don’t have it together myself, and I’m no teacher, how could I help somebody else? Maybe that’s just the thing, to be there. As a fellow human being. On the same level. I’ve talked about ”teaching…
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Lilou Macé has been making interviews for a long time, and posting them to her YouTube channel. I didn’t know she had written a book, actually two, until a friend stuck I Had No Money And I Liked It into my hands. Oh my was I in for a treat! Lilou has spoken to every spiritual…
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I’m looking through my texts on this blog to see what I actually write about. I’m searching for the common denominator. What is my pet subject? Do I have one? I guess I’m writing a lot about – me! – and about writing itself. That reminds me… Unfortunately I didn’t follow up on my promise…
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Yes, et tu Brute. I have tried it. Twice. Do I have to say it? Okay. I hated it. Hated it! It’s like window shopping for a partner. Will this one go with my new jacket? Oh no, I can’t wear heels with this one. Married? Really. Well at least he was honest about it.…
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