När du börjar gräva i ditt inre för att förstå vad som håller dig tillbaka, då kommer det ibland att kännas som att du öppnar Pandoras ask. En massa gammal skit kommer välla upp. Det är helt naturligt. Skiten måste ut för att det ska bli rent och snygg. Först då går det också att…
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Corona har gett mig tid till reflektion och jag känner mig nyfiken på att undersöka de saker som kommer upp. Jag har fortsatt att fundera på den nedärvda programmeringen att göra ”rätt” och hur det påverkat mig och mitt uttrycksbehov. I samma veva dyker minnen upp, tillfällen då rädslan triggats eller förvärrats. Min första stora…
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Jag är uppvuxen i en familj av perfektionister. Det kan låta hårt, men det finns en anledning till perfektionisttänket. Under första tiden av sitt äktenskap bodde min mormor under samma tak som sin svärmor. Morfars mor var en högt aktad kokerska i bygden. Hon arbetade hos de finaste familjerna och på de finaste kalasen. Inte…
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Den här bloggen har legat i dvala under hela 2019 och jag har grunnat mycket på vad jag ska ha den till. Så har det blivit 2020 och skrivlusten kommer långsamt tillbaka. Tänk om… Ja, tänk om jag skulle börja skriva här på bloggen igen? Och tänk om jag skulle skriva på svenska. För några…
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It is very popular right now to see social media and digital communication as something altogether bad. Almost as if they were the tools of Satan. Well, that might be slightly exaggerated – or maybe not?! There is definitely a fight going on between good and evil, but why let the evil side win? Besides,…
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Discover You Creative Archetype, was the message that caught my eye. I find most Facebook tests silly, but something about this one made me curious. Archetype? This was different, and I was of course eager to find out – am I really an artist? Many people find social media and particularly Facebook bad, bad, bad.…
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Movement is supposed to be good, compared to being stuck. In an article today I read how looking for your purpose can make you feel stuck. Well that, and not being in control of your life. Since I handed in my control to the Jobcenter it’s like being back on that stormy sea again. I have…
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I often feel like an alien these days. Maybe not like I’m from another planet, but at least from another dimension. I don’t know, but I seem to think and worry about things that not many others find worth brooding over. Is there something wrong with me? As a child I can’t say I felt…
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Yes, et tu Brute. I have tried it. Twice. Do I have to say it? Okay. I hated it. Hated it! It’s like window shopping for a partner. Will this one go with my new jacket? Oh no, I can’t wear heels with this one. Married? Really. Well at least he was honest about it.…
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How is that possible? I haven’t yet found out who I am. I’m still looking for my true self. On the other hand – how can people not be themselves? What a waste of energy. When I think about it I see so much fear and lies we have bought into, because what we actually…
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I’ve just had a conversation with artist and life coach Christine Lehtinen. The topic was of course me and my dreams. (Yes, again.) Some people might see me as a big talker, and I do talk, but I also enjoy listening. Christine is a fantastic listener, which made me realise how rare it is. Such…
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Finally 2017 is over. Good riddance! It was a crappy year in so many ways. Feels great to get a new year, a clean slate. Phew! Of course not much has changed, but there is a sense of freedom, peace and possible new beginnings. A second chance to get things right, or at least better. ”Oh…
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If nothing ever goes wrong, how can we grow? The challenges force us to become aware. What are my thought patterns? How much do I identify myself with those thoughts? Do I believe my brain when it tells me something is wrong with me? We all have an ego, a side to us that has…
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Am I looking for a savior? Not Jesus or Buddha, but perhaps a (hu)man savior? Someone who could tell me what and who I am? Do I struggle with my identity? Do I wanna ”be” someone in the world? I think the answer to all these questions is – yes. I think others have said…
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When I was about 5 or 6 years old my big sister was 13. I idolised her, but she hated my guts. Once in a while I got to sit in her room for a bit. Maybe she had forgotten I was there, or she tolerated my presence a moment. She’d be listening to music…
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We all know the quote. Even those who weren’t born yet. I was 2 weeks old at the time, when Neil Armstrong first walked on the moon: ”One small step for man. One giant leap for man-kind.” is what he said. Amazing. That’s exactly how I felt Friday, launching my brand new Facebook page. Amazing –…
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I love watching unknown, but great singers and performers audition in talent shows. I never watch the entire shows on TV, but clips online on YouTube. I especially like when the jury underestimate somebody because of their looks. Secretly I too would like to be able to surprise the world with my unique (singing) talents.…
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Do you have that special place where you feel extra good? Where you get inspired, never get tired of exploring and enjoy your favourite peaceful corners? To some it can be a summer house or on the beach. For me – it’s Berlin. I do like spending time by the sea or in a lovely…
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My summer vacation in Kalix ended today and I’m on my way back to Berlin. It’s always difficult to leave my family behind. Another six months before we see each other again. If I’m lucky. Right now my life is very uncertain. I have no job, almost no money and it scares me. I’ve never…
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