We all know the importance of positive thinking and an optimistic mindset. But I’m sure most of us have a problem with that once and again. When you feel stuck and “nothing” positive seems to happen in your life, it’s easy to start doubting. Am I a failure, or on the right track?
About 7 years ago I had a vision. Yes, a vision. It wasn’t a dream, and it wasn’t real, but it was real enough to wake me up. Actually it shook me to my core.
I saw a photo of a man I had just met, and a picture of a city. In my right ear a distinct masculine voice said one word: “Berlin!”
At first I didn’t know what to think of the experience, but it was extraordinary enough to make me curious. I became closer with the man, because he was real, and I decided to go visit him – in Berlin. The rest is history, as they say.
What Did The Vision Really Mean?
As I look back I’m proud to say I did follow my vision. I didn’t quite know what it meant. Being a romantic I of course thought my new friend was “The One”. When he saw it differently it was a painful awakening for me, but I pulled through. (Eventually.) And I still had Berlin!
Right now I’m at the next crossroad thinking: “What was that vision all about?” I came to Berlin, and I’ve had amazing experiences. It’s been tough, challenging, marvellous and beautiful, all at the same time, but I thought something was waiting for me here. I thought it was going to be easy to create my new life.
What Comes Next?
It’s been easy enough, but right now I seem to have come to the end of the road. I don’t know what will happen next, and I wonder: “Was this not the path to my dream? What if my dream was an illusion too?”
Maybe it was, but I will never see my Berlin years as a failure. I could never have made these experiences elsewhere. It’s just that I had such high hopes.
I really believed in my vision. That it would help me find my way. I’d finally create something brand new for myself. Instead I find myself in almost the same situation as before. Oooops, I did it again?
Frankly, I don’t get it.